My worst ...

In my earlier blog, I mentioned that I suffered from insomnia. It is somthing not unusual bcoz I often have problem catching sleep on Sun night due to the Monday Blues but for the rest of the week, I'm usually alright and can catch my beauty sleep well.

This time, my insomnia problem get worsen that I can imagine. I couldn't get a wink on Mon night after a sleepless night on Sun. I "zoombie" to work on the next week, visited the clinic near my workplace to get the antidote. Managed to sleep well on tues night with the prescribed pills. But on Wed 's night, it relapsed again & this time, it got worsen as I stayed wide awake thoughout the night till the next morning.

I couldnt bring myself to work on the very next day so I went to see my company doc at Lot 1 (under Raffles Medical) which was a grave mistake I made.

This doc that I seen probably the worst doc I have seen in my entire life.
1. She did nothing to offer help to solve my problem
2. She didnt show the slightest sympathetic to my woes
3. She made me feel worse by continuing to rub salt on my problem
This is what she told me in exact in a very sarcastic way
" I cant help you, you have to solve your own problem. This could be mental stress or other stress that has built up. We do not have sleeping pills here & I dont issue also. Go to the hospital if you still cant sleep " and sent me out.

Later, the nurse called my name & dispensed 5 pills which supposed to help me in my sleep and a day off. I requested for another day prior to yesterday, that doc rejected and sent me off.

Having gone through this strings of ordeals, I thought I am strong enough to handle but I jz snapped like a rubberband. Yes, I broke down, no matter how hard I tried to fight back my tears, it just flow down uncontrollably. (first time of admitting crying in my blog)

Yes,the doc's intention do mean well that she do not want us to rely on pills to sleep but her approach to this was utterly wrong. It is literally like pushing us down from a high storey floor. I mean, if you, as a doc couldnt help us, then who can?

Of course, I bring myself together later after receiving so much support from my hubby, parents, my mother in law and sis in law , etc. All of them came in with remedies to cure me. It's still early to say if I have recovered but I try to stay strong to fight with this.

Lastly, I still considering whether I should lodge a complaint to the Medical council board on this doc. But I defintely will never return to that clinic anymore.